Something new...

So today I am writing about something new. It's a little bit scary and a little bit fun and mostly exciting.  Some of you have already used your sleuthing skills and have picked up on what I am about to talk about.

Good job Sherlocks!   

As you should know, I closed tann|design in 2011.  It was at a time when I was considering taking the business out of my home office and renting a space. The work had gotten too big for me.  I needed a full-time staff.  At the same time, I noticed how little I was around and how much my kids were missing me. So instead of expanding, I shut it all down.  Frankly I was burnt out as well. I had spent too long trying to do it all and it had taken a toll on me. I had lost the love for graphic design.

I took a good year off, doing nothing but enjoying my family.  After that year I wondered if I would ever enjoy design again. I was at a place where I actually started hating it.  But that didn't stop me from having that Creativity Itch.  I still had the desire to create in some way. So I sketched here. Drew there. Painted a little, but nothing too serious.  

Then I was asked if I could teach some private art lessons.  I said sure, I had nothing better to do and it seemed fun. So for 2013 and 2014 I taught drawing.  I ended up really loving it!  I believe strongly that the best way to learn, is to teach. It was really a great time for me and helped me re-discover my love for art. Something I thought I had killed off with tann|design.  It had re-awoken my passion for creating through image.  But it did not re-awaken my love for graphic design. That ship has sailed. We had the funeral. I hates it forevers.

In January 2014, I had made the goal to re-learn the world of illustration. It was my first love and honestly, I am not entirely sure how I got off-track in college. I have some theories, but I won't go into that now. I was rather rusty though. So for that year I re-learned how to draw by hand. No computer stuff.  I took a watercolor class to help me be better in that way. I re-searched other illustrators to see what they were doing, and what skills I needed.  I had no set goal, other to get the rust off my traditional skills. 

So this brings me to the part that scares me.  2015 brings a new goal. It's time to prove my mettle. This is the year I start focusing. No more directionless creation.  I am setting my sights on several projects. Projects mostly involving children's books. I am very excited to start this new chapter in my life. It means a lot of hard work. It means learning a whole new art field. It means, in a lot of way, starting from scratch.  I am left with a lot of questions. Did I re-work my talent enough? Can I catch up to the other illustrators that have ten years+ of work on me? Can I actually achieve a dream I've had since childhood?

I am doing my best to fill my tool belt. I am learning from any platform out there that wants to give me knowledge.  I am also trying to do it with a better balance then I did tann|design.  I am jumping in with both feet. And it is scary. I am going in a place that I've never been. It is familiar and strange all at the same time. I am the captain of my own ship and I don't know these waters.  I have a lot of questions and a lot of doubts, but I am going make the answer to my questions and doubt be YES! Yes I can do this. Yes I can succeed. Yes I can catch up and yes, yes I do in fact have value.

So wish me luck! You will start to see (and have already seen) an uptick in my work. You will see me fail. And you will see me succeed.